"Full Moon Arising" is one step closer to becoming reality. Edit, edit, edit...not once, not twice perhaps not even three time but onward we go in the editing process. With all the experiences of doing missionary work, you grasp a bit of your past to know that God has used each situation in life to get you where you are today.
With that said, I present to you the last three paragraphs of "Full Moon Arising"...
I have gone my own way at times, but then I have to repent and ask God to forgive me. He always takes me back…unlike people who are so judgmental and will always throw our past sins in our faces. God has allowed me to be who I am and use me there. He has allowed me to explore but much of my life, I didn’t allow myself to be me. I wanted to please those around me so much that I forgot about me. Those around me were never pleased with me. NEVER! I tried and tried but never met their expectations. Jesus is the only One who loves me just the way I am.
Then, finally I broke away…I became me through Christ, I became happy not only with myself but with those around me. Can I hold on to this new me? Or will I fall back into trying to please those around me once more? It is only as I focus my whole being, my thoughts, my behavior, my joy of life on Christ that I am truly set free from those who sucked my life right out of me. It is only as I read my Bible daily and focus on His will for my life that I am truly set free.
This is where I must remain strong…strong in Christ. I am different from the rest; I am free to write, free to paint, free to continue working with the children and free to talk to my Lord. Now it is your turn. Have you surrendered your life to Jesus? Are you ready to serve Him? He’s ready to use your talents, the gifts he’s prepared for you and given to you to bring glory to Him. It is only when you let go of yourself and stop trying to please those around you that you will be truly ready to serve Him. And serve Him you must! Are you ready?
For now, I must run towards the goal that He calls me to.